Victory...maybe!

Finally I've done all I can to join the Air Force. The medic exam went well and after the physical exams I entered the enormous list of people that are waiting for a job in the air force. I enjoyed the physical exams. I did the "portico", five meters from the ground, but I had no problems. The tunnel was very easy too. I only felt scared when it came to jump a wall 0,90 m high, but it went well. After the push ups and the abdominals that were very easy because I've been working out in a gym for eight years, I had to run. It isn't that easy! I never run and I felt really tired, I did the time they required but it wasn't easy, it's something I have to work on in case I make it to the recruit.
Just wanted to let you know this, I don't know if I'll make it because there aren't many openings for what I want, but at least I did all I can! Soon we'll know...
Hug;
Zhews

Is it really that hard to be happy?

What is living all about? You spend most of your life thinking that your existence is all about looking for love; later on you think that it is all about looking for money... until one day you really think and you realize that even if you have both things you still manage to screw your life up to a point when you have to look for something else to feel sad! You are never happy, no matter how much you achieve! Why do we have this need to never really feel complete? I try to do that, but when nobody else does that it's like they are trying hard to make sure that it won´t happen... nobody wants to just feel happy, they want to live a miserable life so they can tell everyone how hard their life was and how they had to fight; what they don't see is that they were really fighting against themselves all the time! Is it because everyone thinks they they should be as the others? Unhappy, with no confidence in yourself, always screaming to the wind that you are the one with no luck, with all the problems? Have you ever considered taking the time to think about the good things that happen? To take the time to think about the smiles you had and you can have again if you bother to stop thinking that all the bad things in the world are out to get you? How is it possible that some people have really no luck in life and still manage to wear a smile? Isn't it spitting on their face when you are crying about not having money to buy that CD, not being able to visit another country, not being able to go to the cinema because you have other obligations or because someone didn't say "Hi" to you or your friend wasn't in the mood to listen to what you had to say? I think it is! I'm fed up with feeling bad energy around me! You have to suffer not only with your own problems but also with the problems that everyone else is so eager to make sure everyone sees, or even with the problems they invent! It's fashionable to say that you're not happy, something is wrong! Even if it is the canteen food, even if it really wasn't that bad but what would someone think if you said something like "I like the canteen food!", "I like living!", "I like to feel happy!", "I like myself!". Nowadays people are not ready to hear such things, they criticize people who say that! Being with a sad face and complaining about life is a question of "status", if you don't do it you're "out"! Take the time to breathe, to enjoy life, to think about the good things that happen to you and free the world of the bad energy that is everywhere we go! We deserve more than a world that only thinks about what we didn't get, what we didn't find, what we couldn't do! Don't you agree?

Zhews

The final step

Yes, my future might be clearer on the 3rd of June. I've done the eye cirurgy, I can see clearly now (the rain is gone:), and now I'm going to perform the final tests to join the air force. If everything goes as expected, I will be working there in a month.

I don't have much time, just wanted to let you know this, I haven't been writing that much in here!

Regards;

Zhews

One step closer...

It is hard to figure out whether you should live for the present or for the future! I mean, one day everyone is telling you that you should seize the moment, the other they are telling you to take it easy, you should think about the future! This may seem pointless, but consider your life:

If you choose work over love, you are considering the future; if you choose love over work, you are seizing the moment;

If you feel happy and scream in the middle of the street to show it, you are seizing the moment; if you choose to shut up, you are thinking about the future because someone might see you and think badly of you;

If you buy that thing you have always wanted, you are seizing the moment; if you don't buy it and save the money, you are thinking about the future!

As you see, sometimes one thing prevents the other from happening, so it is a difficult decision to make! Your heart puts pressure on you to enjoy life the best you can, society pressures you to think about the future and measure the consequences of all that you do. It is very hard to make a choice; I make a different choice in different situations. Sometimes it's all about the moment, other times it's all about the future. I confess most times it's about the future, it scares me that all this hard choices could be of no use to me! The future sometimes turns out to be so different, sometimes it doesn't even come... what will you think on those last few moments? I've lived a full life? I've been preparing to live a full life and never had the chance to do it? On the other hand, if future does come, what will you think? I didn't take the proper measures to have a peaceful future, now I'm paying for it? Finally I have the peace I've always wanted, thank God I made those difficult choices in the past? Nobody knows what will happen, so nobody knows what they will think. I will go on making the easier choices and hopping the hard ones were correct, what else can I do?

Should we content with being one step closer but not knowing if we'll ever get there, or should we take the final step towards everything we want not knowing if that means that in the future we could lose everything?

If you have a solution to this, please share it with me! I see no other way!

Hug;

Zhews

Jack Johnson

This is going to be the beginning of my English posts. That way I can go international:) To start I chose to share one of my new passions: Jack Johnson. It had been a while since I last fell in love with someone´s music like this. The guy is a surfer who decided to sing... his songs have attached such a good feeling, you can listen to them for hours and never get tired! Maybe the beauty of a life with the sea as his best friend and the sand as his home could only be translated into songs like these... If you never listened to his songs, please do! I promise you that you will not be disappointed! I have been depending on this guy to bring me summer, the beach and with it inner peace! I have always been in love with the beach and summer life (except from a very good friend of mine called Ricardo, I think almost everyone feels the same!); and if I really think about it, the summer is when I can truly be in touch with myself, when I can really grasp the world around me without the "noise" of normal life. And the summer, with the beach and the sand as my witnesses, brought me my love. I feel the need for that magic now, I can't wait for the summer to arrive!

Hug;

Zhews.

Um dia de sol...

Pois é, hoje está grande dia de sol, um dia que eu desejava já há algum tempo, visto que ultimamente tem estado chuva e isso deixa-me sempre mais desanimado. Então eis que veio o sol... e eu estou aqui em casa, sentado em frente ao computador, a "queixar-me" em vez de fazer alguma coisa! O pior é que eu penso, penso... e não sei que deva fazer! Os meus amigos estão todos ocupados, a minha namorada ainda mais ocupada está, vejo-me aqui com este dia e eu sem poder fazer nada de especial! A minha vontade era ir até à praia, se não fosse o facto de não ter dinheiro até ia; mas longe de mim poder ter qualidade de vida, o Sócrates ficava triste se visse que ainda há algum Português que pode fazer alguma coisa para além de "apertar o cinto" e tentar pagar as contas; não o quero desiludir! "Qualidade de vida"... poder pegar no carro e ir passear, ir ter com a namorada quando quero, pegar nos amigos e fazer qualquer coisa diferente... parece tão distante! Quando trabalhar é um privilégio e não uma obrigação como foi durante tantos anos, é porque algo de muito estranho se passa! Ainda por cima para o Português, tão preguiçoso que é! Estou cansado de não poder fazer planos para o ano que vem, para o mês que vem... é também por isso que nunca pensei em ir para a Força Aérea e de repente parece que o queria desde pequenino; parece um sonho ter algo certo por mais que uns meses! Se não fosse tão colado à terrinha, à namorada... sei que não iria ficar aqui à espera de ser esmagado por um país que nos amarra ao medíocre! Mas os sentimentos são assim, quando me custa pensar que posso ter que me mudar para Lisboa, imaginem o que custaria pensar que tenho que mudar para outro país!


Mas como não me adianta nada "desatar a chorar", vou deixar aqui este texto, deixar o link dum video para dar moral ao pessoal, ir até à musculação libertar o stress e tentar inventar um sorriso no meio de isto tudo! A verdade é que podia ser bem pior (como se pensar nisso ajudasse muito).


Quem tiver oportunidade, aproveite então o sol, agarre a "qualidade de vida"; hoje em dia é um bem raro sequer pronunciar tais palavras!


Grande abraço;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sb2YOg_dkQM

Zhews.

Uma aventura...

Peço desculpa pela minha demora, isto de escrever no blog é por fases... às vezes escrevo muito, outras vezes não escrevo nada!
Sempre tentei ingressar na Força Aérea, é bastante mais difícil do que imaginava! Os testes psicotécnicos são duros, 4 horas em frente a um computador a responder a questões que põem à prova raciocínio, personalidade e paciência, muita paciência! Mas consegui sobreviver a essa tortura... de directa! É logo no primeiro dia, portanto se alguém estiver com ideias de tentar entrar na FA convém ir no dia anterior e dormir lá, senão não vai ser fácil! O segundo dia foi mais "soft", falar com o Psicólogo, prova de grupo, um texto sobre o que nos levou a tentar entrar na FA, muito simples comparado com o primeiro dia! O que não é simples é ver que a maior parte do pessoal não consegue passar esta fase! A partir daqui pensei que não haveria qualquer problema, que conseguiria passar todos os testes. Pensei... pois nos testes médicos reprovei! Não fazia ideia de que não podia ter miopia com mais que 2,5... e não passei! A solução agora é fazer uma operação aos olhos. Eu já ia fazer, o problema é que para não repetir os testes tenho que a fazer nos próximos 3 meses... não é fácil! E como não posso passar os 28 anos para entrar na FA, o tempo urge. Veremos como vai ser o meu futuro, veremos se o meu futuro passa pela FA. Já desgostei mais da ideia, será uma vida diferente, mas ao menos é uma vida. Não fico a pensar se daqui a dois meses tenho emprego, se só conseguirei sair de casa aos 40 anos... tenho que arriscar se quero ter mais da vida do que ficar a pensar como vou sobreviver no próximo mês! O destino dirá o que me espera... até lá vou vivendo mês a mês, sem saber bem onde vou parar!
Vou tentar escrever mais vezes;
Abraço;
Zhews